On Tuesday morning the Neurologist and his team came in and informed us that Silas had Infantile Spasms. I didn't think it sounded too bad but as they continued to talk and inform us of what it was I remember going a bit numb. What? I'm not sure I'm really understanding what you are saying... Infantile Spasms is know to be a very rare and hard to treat form of Epilepsy. I remember hearing that there were great chances of developmental delays and more Epilepsy in the future. Our next step was to get an EEG done to see if Silas had any other brain abnormalities. They told us that this was a really big deal, we wanted to see NO other things wrong. They left and we hit our knees on the floor, asking our great Lord for healing upon Silas. We knew we needed Christ at that moment to hold our little boy and to hold us. We cried a lot, asked a lot of questions, prayed almost constant, and loved up on our little boy.
Prayer chains began. Many people from our church called and prayed with us over the phone. Nana and Papa, G'ma and G'pa came to check our their little grandson. Pastor Vince and Kathy came to read scripture and pray over Silas and us. Dustin held me as I wept as I never had before. I loved my little boy so much and this news was a harder life than I wanted for my little 5 month old. But God's promises came. The Lord was nearer than I had ever felt Him. He held us. Dustin held me. I held Silas. We read over and over in Scripture that there WILL (not might) be hard things in this life. But we have Christ and that is enough.
We didn't sleep that night. We prayed and held Silas. Morning came and they took Silas away from me to get the EEG scrubbed off before the MRI. My heart has never hurt so bad. Silas cried more in those last 24 hours than I could handle and then I had to give him over to be put to sleep. Putting him to sleep for the MRI went bad and they whisked me out of the room. I thought I would faint at how much my heart hurt. But Silas, you made it through and we received wonderful news that the MRI showed everything was normal. We were so thankful.